Why I was an "inncative member"
Posted: Sat Dec 15, 2012 6:42 pm
I know this is a bit off topic, but I was one the members whose account was deactivated. I know no explanation is mandatory, bnut I still felt it would be a goode idea. Around the month of May of 2012, my father suffered a massive stroke (we were told he would either be dead or in a vegatative state), despite showing only signs of the flu, no stroke symnptoms whatsoever. I had to change to a flexible job which unfortunately doesn't pay as much as my previous one. For nearly 6 weeks my dad was hospitalized. I'm an only child and we have no family here in Canada. Honestly, the only thing on my mind was, "am I going to lose my father? what will happen to my mom and I if he dies or becomes a vegetable? My parents don't know about me being a member of this forum. On top of that, I was raised a christian and I would be severely chastised if this was discovered. On top of that, 2 days after my dad was discharged and sent to a recovery-rehab facility, I ended up leaving my place of worship in an ambulance and spending 4 hours in the emergency room. Why? The so-called christians whom my family and I associated with offered no support. Instead, they tried to cause trouble for us and even insulted my parents and I.
I actually would sign up just to see what was happening on this site, but I had no energy, I was emotionally drained. From the end of May until now, I probabaly sent only 3 e-mails. I know I posted nothing, but I was till checking out this forum. To make things worse, I no longer had time to exercise. Personally, I look awful physically in my opinion. I'm afraid to wear a speedo because of the ridicule. I saw an acquaintance of mine who loves to give me sensual-erotic massages and he said I looked fine, but I feel so insecure now. And now my liver has been adversely affceted due to stress and other factors so my stomach swells up in a major way. I have days when literally nothing fits me.
Let's becareful on the conclusions we reach.
I actually would sign up just to see what was happening on this site, but I had no energy, I was emotionally drained. From the end of May until now, I probabaly sent only 3 e-mails. I know I posted nothing, but I was till checking out this forum. To make things worse, I no longer had time to exercise. Personally, I look awful physically in my opinion. I'm afraid to wear a speedo because of the ridicule. I saw an acquaintance of mine who loves to give me sensual-erotic massages and he said I looked fine, but I feel so insecure now. And now my liver has been adversely affceted due to stress and other factors so my stomach swells up in a major way. I have days when literally nothing fits me.
Let's becareful on the conclusions we reach.